2014
Sounds nice but just based on the surface,
The first day of 2014
Well all bad happened one by one!
Nice! What a sweet way to welcome me!
2014 you are such a sweet sugar bunny year! Thanks anyway! I really appreciate!
But Im a little better now, just a little.
I can't stop my mind :(
Why can't you just just GTFOO my mind?!
WHY? Oh I see, seem like you are pretty enjoying torture people's mental?
Nice try and unfortunately :( it's work pretty well actually!
Congratulation ! You succeed torturing me!
But don't worry I won't be mentally ill just give me some time to recover.
But anyway nice try honey!
-Just for expression-
Why tell me why?
Don't you think I want it too? I want it more than you do, so badly!
I wanted to know why too! But I don't know! I really don't know :(
I can't even try to know :(
I just don't know okay? I don't know why my determination is that weak!
I DON'T KNOW! I also want to be successful so badly!
Even though when I sleep Im also dreaming about my future!
Everything seems to be so easy it's like to be a successful person it's just a piece of cake!
But I know that Im just dreaming it's just a dream.
If everything is so easy no one will ever suicide,
But don't worry Im not that weak, Im a tough girl and I know that.
I just need to stay as long as I become successful,
What if I just need to hold 1min more? I will never ever let go, I will stay still!
No matter how pain it is.
Just for my dreams come true
all of my dream will come true someday I swear to God, it will!
Please just give me the courage to make my determination strong! :(
Haizzz, Im still down now :(
I will take every single judgement as a compliment, just for me,
every single incident as a gift, just for me,
I REALLY WILL
It's just the matter of time someday every single dream of mine will turn into reality!
All I had to do it's just to go on I believe I can!
Im still down :(
You know sometimes being happy is not a easy thing,
When you really really lack of happiness and you want to be happy again,
No matter how miserable this world is you will always leave it aside,
But sometimes it's just not that easy :(
Sometimes,we will be unhappy because we take something as
an issue a matter a trouble a thing that bother us,
In fact, it wasn't that bad just we don't want to let it go.
But sometimes, It's because of the matter of fact you have to face it no matter what,
Sometimes you need to sacrifice to be happy that's no free lunch.
No matter how hard that you tried to get rid of it even though you did,
Still you won't be happy because being happy it's a process
You need to take the first step otherwise you can't go on, you can't skip or jump the step.
And now Im skipping a step which I have no more strength to face it and now Im hiding myself from it,
But then I can't be happy neither :( This shit really kill me so damn badly :(
I always tell myself I didn't skip Im facing it! And maybe yes Im facing it but doing nothing :(
Sometimes, this is so tiring :( But I know it's worth it.
Don't worry I will recover soon :)
Anyway,
Happy New Year everyone :)
Have a sweet day :)
1 Jan 2014 @ 4:38 pm ♥ 0 CoMmEnTs ♥
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