So Hi another random expression post again.
To be honest, I don't know what to say...hmmm okay then why don't talk about friends?
I'm just so ...Yay life. All I need is to be either alone or alone. And yet, I'm not alone but in fact I'm alone.
Confused? me either. What the hell man. I hate this, this is suck as hell. (or even worse.)
Okay I will do my best to make it clear. to you guys or at last to me.
I had a lot of friends. (Thanks to my craziness or kindness Whatever.) Or basically everyone needs a friend, including me, myself. That's why I got friends.
People say that friends are like another brothers or sisters but from different parents. They are meant for you. They are meant to be there with you or even though they are not here with you but still you will never feel alone cause you know you still have them no matter what. In the matter of senses, I guess that's why friends are for or why they are your friends. But I'm totally the opposite side. Even when they are here with me I still feel alone. Did I just ask too much or this is a fact? I'm always different from what they are. So to speak of the truth, I think I still / haven't , had a real friend / found a real friend.
Facts about me. 1. I don't have a real friend yet for living in this world like 16 years ++ so far I still haven't had a real friend, what a shame or shall I say I live in a fake world...so everything is fake? Or maybe I'm the only thing that is fake in this world so that's why I can't find my type or kind.
So to lighten up the mood let me tell you guys a story.
I have forgotten when but this is the whole story, One day, I and my mum went to shopping.
AND I saw a super cute baby. I don't know he/she is a girl or boy.
But he/she is super cute. Blonde hair and blue eyes (Just imagine.) I think he/she is only a months old or 2 months old something like that. I don't where did I get the courage, I done something crazy, I run to her/he and pinch he/she cheek and said "you are so cute little..."I paused cause I don't he/she was a boy or girl. Then his/her mum said (I suppose) "he's a boy." "Oh." I replied with a smile and continue to play with that little boy(P.S. I really have no idea wtf am I doing.) "You are so cute little young man." "How old are you?" I know I looked stupid of coz he won't answer me he can't talk yet but Hey! I'm just being me. (crazy and well you know.) and then his mum replied for him "He is 3 months old." This is the moment that I lost control. I can't contain my feelings anymore. So I pick this little baby up from his baby chair and carry him in my arms. "Awwww, you are so cute, when you grow up please marry me please?"I show him my best puppy face... (I know I'm insane I really do so shut up!) I can see that his mum smile in joy and shook her head...(properly thinking that I'm insane.) And you know what happen next? This baby, cutie boy use both of his hand squeeze my cheek and kiss me, on my lips and smile at me. HOW CUTE WAS THAT!! "Hey, that's my first kiss young man!" I chuckled "I guess you have to marry me when you grow up." I winked at him. ( I know I know I'm insane.) So finally I kissed his lips and cheek and put him back into his baby chair. His mum waved that tiny hand of his (little charming boy) and said "Say goodbye to your future wife!" I laughed at her words and last I said thanks to her. "For what? and not a problem." she replied. What a cool mum, huh? I just smile as a reply. When they went out of the mail. My mum finally speak up. "What a cute baby isn't it?" I just nodded as a reply for 'agree' "Who gave you that courage?" I frown at my mum in confusion, what dose she mean by that? She read my expression like a book and said "The courage to run into people's baby so not you, you know" Oh. ya right. I'm a shy girl just in case you don't know. "Well, to be honest I have no idea maybe your daughter has just grown up." I winked at her . and my mum roll her eyes and said (more like yelled lol) " grown up my ass!" I shot her a death glare "hey no swear words!" My mum stick her tongue out and finally said "I think you just like blondes, that's why." I shook my head as I disagree. "Nope, I like his eyes, I like blue eyes and is his charming that gave me the courage!" my mum just rolled her eyes. ( just in case you don't know I look so much like my mum.) What can I say? We both are the sunshine of the world! (LOL)
I don't why I did this but I just did. It's insane yes I know but tbh I like it! oh no wait I love it!! just sharing with you guys :P and last but not least, THE END :P