
Why does it feel so good but hurt so bad?
So,
Hi.
How have you guys been? ...How have I been? Great. I've tried to update my blog but every time before I end my post I'll always be lost in words. It feels like you have so much thing to say to express but not words can actually describe them. Feeling is infinite I guess. You can only feel it to know it, even though you know it doesn't mean you can feel it. See? you won't get how does that feel. Every time I come here and express myself, I always had this kinda wired feelings...it feels like this world is so big yet feels so small, like today is the end of world but you are actually breathing fine, like you are so infinite but yet so powerless, like you seemed so strong and you know you are but still there's some unknown feelings inside your heart, you can feel it but you don't know what is it. Some unknown calm but yet it's burning like fire. If only you know what I meant. I guess I have grown up. While you are trying so hard to survive, I'm doing so hard to live a life. I'm fighting my own fear and I will always and always win no matter how hard is it. You know what is the best part of life? Is that everything is unknown object, no answers for everything, everything is possible and this is your life. Live it or survive. You know what is the worst part of life? Is that everything is unknown we have no answers for everything even though we do that might not be real or might not be the truth, 1+1 doesn't = to 2 it = to infinity and yet we are so small. But, we can always explore and we will know the best. And we humans are infinite. So, this is life. It can be hard but I always believe everything happened for a reason and you are the one who created this reason within your subconscious mind.
But some people choose to use their infinity to be idiots. So that's why we see so much assholes, sluts and idiotic human being. Everything is infinite. Actually everyone choose to be an idiot but some are fighting themselves. That's why they are not idiots. And I'm fighting as well. No matter how hard it is, I don't care whether I have those idiotic blood or not, I'm getting rid of those. You won't always fail nor success, so just keep on fighting. But I do believe you will always be successful if you want yourself to be like I said I believe in infinite we can do whatever we want, in another word we will get whatever we desire for. *winking*
It feels so good to type again it feels so good to express again. I'm feeling calm and I like it. I like how my blood flows inside me, how my mind is working for me and how all this words are coming within my hands effortlessly and I'm typing them here. Nice and nice this is life. Maybe one day I will be a writer. Maybe not, I will be everything someday I will.
Till then,
I'm signing off.
Cya next time.
Pain will always had joy in it, so find it.